Henry didn’t
realise he was staring until the little girl spoke to him and when he did he
flushed from collar to pate as though his innermost thoughts had been revealed.
“Where is my
bedroom?” she said, in the tenderest, sweetest little voice he’d ever heard
form a child. She looked ashen and tired and she rubbed unconsciously at her
eye, peering up at him through her lashes with absolute trust and dependence.
Henry
started, his mind blamnk of any kind of rational response for a moment. He was
reeling still from his encounter with the strange intruder and now to find
himself in this contrived situation. It stimulated wonder. But the child was waiting. She’d asked him a
question and her had no choice but to take a hold of himself. “Er, just up
here. I’ll show you.” He gestured to the foot of the stairs and stepped
forward, pausing to wonder at the protocol of leading or following. He was
knocked off-kilter enough that his life-trained social instincts were vacuous.
She’s only a
child, he reminded himself. It doesn’t matter. But he was hyperaware of
everything now.
He was ahead
of her already so by default he led the way up the staircase and the girl
followed at a slow shamble, dead or dying on her feet. Her eyes were partly
closed. She looked like she might fall asleep upright if left alone.
Henry turned
left at the top of the first flight then climbed the four steps to the upper
landing. His bedroom and Joey’s cell were straight ahead. He paused there
before them for the child to catch up.
“I’m sorry
to say I don’t remember your name,” he said.
She yawned,
stretching the syllables of her name round it but he made out enough to catch
“Rosalie.”
“That’s a
pretty name,” he replied, then opened his mouth again to say, “for a pretty
girl.” But he didn’t say it. He just closed his mouth again.
Rosalie
joined him at the corner there and pointed to the third closed doorway. “Is
that my bedroom?”
“No,” said
Henry. “That room’s empty. The landlady’s hoping to get a sixth guest in there.
You’ll be sleeping up there.” He pointed to the steep wooden ladder-stairs in
an alcove to their right.
It was an
odd arrangement. A person had to walk into the short corridor then turn back on
himself to climb up the ladder-stair through the open hatchway. It was a
permanent feature but not a climb that Henry relished. He’d only ever climbed
up once out of pure nosiness and had immediately decided not to risk it again.
Still, this
time he had to. And he... wanted to. He had a responsibility to see to it that
the little girl got safely settled into bed.
“Come on,”
he said. “Up you go.”
He touched
the top of her back to guide her before him. When she reached the foot of the
ladder stair she looked back at him doubtfully. “Up there?”
He nodded.
“It’s perfectly safe.” A lie, but a serviceable one.
She gave the
peak a suspicious peer then started to climb, holding on to each step with both
hands.
It was a
staircase of sorts with wooden steps and gaps between, but the angle of ascent
was so steep it was uncomfortably close to being vertical. It was possible to
climb and descend with no hands but not particularly wise.
When she was
half way up, Henry positioned himself at the bottom and looked up, catching a
clear but shaded view up her bare legs and into the cavity of her dress.
He
swallowed, shutting his eyes tightly then started up after her.
It was pitch
black in the loft room. Rosalie stayed close to the hatchway until his head
popped level with her ankles. Twin light switches were built into the side of
the hatch. He pressed them at random until the little blue sunken halogen
lights came on.
It had
broadly sloping ceilings. It was only possible to stand upright in the centre
of the room. Most of the floor space was covered in boxes. Henry got up there
and stood beside Rosalie, unsure what was to come next.
They looked
at one another and the clear thought came to Henry that he was totally alone
with her.
Joey had
left for work. Travis and Selina were ensconced on the ground floor. Clare and
Mike had gone out. There were two floors of space between them and anyone else.
Rosalie gave
him a little smile. Henry cleared his throat, smiling back.
The moment
lengthened then abruptly passed.
“Here,” he
said. “I think there’s a bed at the back here.” He led her to the far end of
the attic space. Behind the boxes was an alcove that could only be reached by
crawling. A double bed was in there, thankfully made up and uncovered. That at
least was a relief. “Yes. You can sleep there,” he said. “And your father will
be up to join you soon I’m sure.”
They stood
there for another moment. And another.
“Er... Come
on then,” said Henry. “We’d, er, better get you ready for bed. Do you have a
nighty?”
Rosalie
shook her head solemnly.
Henry
cleared his throat. “Ah. Alright. Er, well take your shoes off and... and your
dress then. You’ll have to, er, sleep in your underwear.” He tried to smile
reassuringly but was worried that it would look like a leer.
Rosalie
kicked off her sandals then reached for the hem of her dress.
Another
moment came that seemed frozen. Henry’s hands were shaking.
Then he
turned away, just as she whipped it up and over her head.
He closed
his eyes, gripping one palsied hand with the other, not hearing his own
heartbeat but feeling the tremors.
The dress
fell to the floor just within his field of vision but he didn’t look down at it
for fear he would catch a peripheral view of the almost naked girl.
There was a
shuffle of bedclothes and then silence. “I’m in,” she said.
“Good girl.”
Henry turned
to look at her now, seeing her little weary face peeping over the top of the
covers. His heart rate was higher now; faster. He took a step back.
“Well,” he
said. “Right. You better close your eyes now and go to sleep.” He went to the
top of the ladder-stair, teetering between relief, regret and confusion.
“Leave the
light on,” said Rosalie. “I’m scared.”
Henry looked
back at her. “Alright,” he said. “But you don’t have to worry, There’s nothing
for you to be scared about.”