AFTERMATH
It was just
like it had been in the mental health secure unit.
Chaos.
Raised voices.
Broken furniture. Wild crazed eyes. Staring.
Joey felt
the patterning of the wallpaper where he still pressed himself into the doorway
under his coarse fingertips, looking from one person to another, not sure what
had just happened or who the man with the beard had been.
The little
girl, Rosalie, was crying. Mike, her father, was on his knees next to her,
gripping one of her shoulders and running two fingers through her hair over and
over again, murmuring to her in soothing tones that made Joey feel faintly
jealous.
The place
where the man had been standing; by the front window; was empty now but Joey
kept looking back there as though he might reappear, still unsure what it had
all meant. His voice had been unreal: the intensity of it; like he’d been one
of the bosses in a computer game, or a villain from a super hero film. But like
a psychiatrist’s voice too somehow. Noticing that connection made Joey’s
fingers tense, closing into the shrinking circle of a fist.
Travis was
still on the floor in the corner where he’d fallen. Selina was fussing around
him, gripping his fore and upper arm, trying to help him stand. He whipped his
hand out of her grasp and snapped, “Get the hell offa me!” his face feral, like
a snarling bear; but as he tried to get up by himself he floundered back onto
the wreckage of the little wooden table.
“Travis!”
Selina went back to help him.
“I said get
off!”
He got onto
all fours and pushed himself up, his back arching slowly like it was in slo-mo
before he snapped his face into view.
“Well screw
you then!” snapped Selina, staggering back away from him. “If you don’t want my
help.”
“Ah, fuck
you,” said Travis, upright now, looking nastier than Joey had ever seen him.
“Guys,” said
Mike. “My daughter’s here. Can you give the language a break for five minutes?”
Travis glared back at him. “Please?”
The pressure
climbed to a spike for a second or two, then Travis looked away from Mike like
he wasn’t there – no apology; just ignored him. “This is all bullshit.”
Selina said,
“Travis?”
“It’s all
just crap. I’m going to bed. You coming?”
Selina
looked unsure. Her eyes were bloodshot, her cheeks moist. Joey glanced down at
her cleavage, the way her top had fallen clear of one shoulder, revealing an
unusually large area of naked flesh. She nodded and the moment passed. Coming
forward, Travis took her right hand in his right so that she had to follow
behind him. Neither one of them looked at Joey as they passed but Joey managed
to get a quick steal of the back of Selina’s calves in her stilettos.
Mike was up
now too, Rosalie in his arms. He gave her a little jerk to move her into a more
comfortable holding position. “Come on sweetheart,” he said. “Let’s get you a
drink or something.”
He moved
toward the door but unlike the other two, he did pause to look at Joey. There
was a moment or two where he gave Joey the same look that some of the nurses
gave him in the secure unit – you only look safe; I know you’re dangerous – then
he smiled to cover it and edged through the narrow gap between Joey and the
door, keeping the hulking younger man in view until he was out of sight.
Joey lowered
his head and sighed, then he remembered the old man asleep on the chair and
started to look back at him.
Before he
could, the front door knocked open and Clare rushed back in from outside. She
saw Joey and came right up to him.
“Joey. Help
me. Quick!” she said, “We have to go after him!”
“Who?”
Clare gaped
at him. “The man! The man who was just here! We have to catch him! Come on! I
don’t know which way he went! We have to split up and find him.”
Joey shook
his head.
“We have to
go now! Come on! Come with me!”
“No.”
“What? Why
not? We have to get him back here!”
Joey
pictured the cold grey eyes; the intensity of the voice. He recalled almost
nothing about what the man had said but he couldn’t escape the jarring he’d
felt from being in the same room with him. “I have to go to work.”
“Joey, this
is more important,” said Clare. “I need your help.”
“I have to
go to work.” He checked the time. It was even true.
“Joey
please.”
He went to
go, forcing her to step back. She was still calling after him when he closed
the front door on her.
Outside it
was better. It seemed like there had been a buzzing in the back of his head the
whole time he’d been in there but that had stopped now. The air was chilly. The
street was silent.
Trying not
to think about the man with the strange eyes, Joey walked to his car, unlocked
it and climbed in, resenting as he always did the restriction the tiny car had
on his movements. He started the engine and put his hands on the steering wheel
but he didn’t pull off immediately.
He had the
sudden feeling that he’d said something he shouldn’t have done when he was
still inside. About breaking the woman’s back. He closed his eyes, furrowing
his brow; trying to recall if he had or not.
Surely he
hadn’t. He didn’t tell that story to anybody. He didn’t want to get into
trouble and people never understood why he had to do it when he tried to
explain.
He shook his
head and pulled his car carefully out into the street. It didn’t matter. He
can’t have told them. It was impossible.
Why he had to do it. creepy
ReplyDeleteIndeed. Not sure I'd want him to take me out on a Saturday night!
DeletePoor Clare she just wants to be a good person. And she probably isn't going to manage it, particularly given the company she's being put with
ReplyDeleteYeah. Her heart's in the right place but I'm not sure things will go well for her.
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